Saturday, March 20, 2010

Coming to Terms

So today i realize i ask alot of questions and i realize that theres a reason why i'm asking them, but i don't acknowledge that. I don't take the reason into consideration and quite frankly, on this blog, i don't even state the reason...maybe the answers to my questions will be easier to grasp if i consider my reason for questioning. Well, from now on, i'll tell you what's going on in my life and then i'll ask the question.

 Today i finished The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks. Well, it's being made into a movie and once you watch the movie, you can't read the book! it's just not the same. The book is amazing and i feel like it connects to everyone because everyone's had someone pass away in their life and it's never easy to understand or deal with. Anyways, while i'm reading the book, my mom ironically gets a phone call from our family friend and we get news that her mother-in-law has passed away due to cancer. I find it extremely ironic because that's exactly where i was in my book and then we get that phone call...and it was all really strange, but my family went to visit our family friend and spend a little time helping with whatever they needed. The next day, while on the phone with her best friend, my mom mentions to her that so and so's mother-in-law passed away and tells the story and then says yeah she passed away at 2pm and i'll never forget the words that came out of her mouth next. After listening to her best friends response, my mom said (and i'm dead serious), "yeah, so how do i get to that kitchen store?" I understand that they were probably talking about a kitchen store before my mom brought up the death but I was extremely taken back by how quickly the topic changed...and it made me think about how fast we move on and how somebody passing is hard but really its just another step in life.
Why do we have so many emotions that control our actions? Better yet, how do our emotions change so quickly? If i think about how i've reacted to different situations in my life, if i had slightly altered an emotion, i could be in a completely different place in life. That's an amazing thought. Emotions drive our personalities and basically every aspect of our lives.
Do you think that people actually embrace their emotions? whether it's in relation to death, love (which is a whole different story), happiness, joy, courage...do you think people just take the second to embrace the emotion before letting it consume our minds? Maybe i should try it...because i know i dont. My emotions consume my body faster than i can think. Maybe by embracing emotions we can control emotional reactions...actually i take that back. I think every reaction is, in some way, an emotional reaction. I need to continue to evaluate this...but i'll get back to you.

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