Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Why are hardships in life supposed to make you stronger?
Some days I just think about how hard life is. People die, people leave, sicknesses are diagnosed and pain boils inside of us. It builds and it builds and finally you can't take it anymore. You break down or you begin to feel apathetic. Pushing all feelings outside of you and blocking memories out of your mind. Is that my new found strength? Being able to block memories and forget that emotions exist? I don't really see that as a strength.

While reading an army wife's blog post called incoming she helped me realize that hardships for us are irrelevent compared to the hardships for those overseas fighting "our war"...i realize that but i still complain..why? why do i feel like the world is pulling me under when in reality i'm safe from all harm?

As I ran around with 8 million things to do, the real life difficulties trumped my academic stresses. I don't understand what new strength I'm supposed to gain from the hardships. I wish I knew because maybe I'd work harder to process the situation and accept the outcome rather than avoiding the situation all together.
I need an answer before I have to ask the question.

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